Is it enough?

Am I enough?

Will this ever be alright?

Still going insane

Got to stifle this pain

So I’m losing sleep, drowning every night

I’m tossing

I’m turning

Still hurting, but learning

Can’t find any peace of mind in a life like mine

Eyes open

Eyes closed

Who knows?

I’m

Not

Okay

But since you’ve asked, I’m fine.

 

Can you help me figure out what this static’s all about?

I’m so stricken with self-doubt

Want to rip my wires out

I’m exhausted by your truth, so I’m enslaved by all my lies

I feed you programmed hellos to mask my tearful goodbyes

It’s like hide and go seek— I’m the one to always hide

But then nobody seeks me

Wipe my eyes, pretend they’re dry

It’s never paid to get my hopes up; so I’m bankrupt

Not in mint condition; I’m a classic, but I’m banged up

Everything I do, I swear I do my very best

But I’m only human

There’s no ‘S’ etched upon this chest

Ain’t no superhero, hardly special

Yes, indeed, I know this

All I’ve got to give is talent

I just wish one soul would notice

It hurts to think you have something worth sharing with the world

Then you find out you’re not good enough, just not that kind of girl

The kind of girl who’s popular, the kind of girl that’s hot

The kind of girl I should be, but apparently, am not.

Yet I keep on going, trying to force the hands of time and fate

I’m just trying to finally “make it”, have more food upon my plate

Just trying to dodge a bitter past, to make my future sweet

Just trying to make those who’ve hurt me eat their words, admit defeat

Just trying to show myself that I am worth my weight in gold

Just trying to be happy ‘fore I’m jaded, tired and old

 

But is it enough?

Am I enough?

Will this ever be alright?

Still going insane

Got to swallow this pain

So I’m losing sleep, drowning every night

I’m tossing

I’m turning

Still hurting, but learning

Need to find some peace of mind in a life like mine

Eyes open

Eyes closed

Who knows?

I’m

Not

Okay

But since you’ve asked, I’m fine.

© C. M. 2018 All Rights Reserved

 


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Just a girl lost in a daydream who is trying her best to color inside of the lines like everyone else, but is finding the act of smearing watercolor outside of the lines much, much more enjoyable.

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